Here we are, two months into 2011 already. Life moves fast, we move faster, technology moves faster still, and no one has much of a clue what’s going on and why we are doing what we’re doing. I don’t mean theories and philosophies and beliefs, there are plenty of those, but a real sense of what’s going on, what life is about, why we are here and what is a right action, not just getting on with it because that’s what job was available or that’s what everyone else seems to be doing. It’s easier to get busy going fast than work out anything new, or explore into alternatives.

I had a lot of tension this morning, bundled with a while bunch of energy, making me short tempered and a bit wild. I took it out on a friend and colleague, arguing for the sake of arguing, getting all snappy. Soon I am going to take a good few days off, just for myself. It’s not really about taking time off to be well, but being well every day. But it’s been a long time since I could let go of work and relationships for a while, let go of the difficulties and questions and problem solving at work and at home and just do something… fun… interesting. I tend to take on issues I don’t need to get involved it.

Next weekend it’s my brother’s stag weekend, which will definitely be something different. Met F & A today, who are back from California. It’s good to see them again, old colleagues, and again, friends. I feel blessed to be able to work with people I also like. That really helps.

The book arrived, ‘The Highly Sensitive Person’. I haven’t read it yet but I can definitely tick most of the Yes boxes in the questionnaire. I feel it’s going to be a good read and a real learning ground, I can tell. This morning, again I started with a Sivananda session at dawn, then drifted back into some snoring for half an hour. I reckon you need energy to be able to rest deeply, a restful rest. Otherwise it’s just a sleep and then wake up and carry on. What if a night allowed real relaxation?

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