Yesterday evening I taught the second weekly class. It felt very different this time. Last time I didn’t really feel present and wasn’t really sure how the whole thing went. I was rushing through the poses and nervous. This time I was much more comfortable, steady, relaxed and paced the postures better. I felt the nerves and continued gently. I really enjoyed teaching. It is a very new experience for me. I’ve never really taught anything in my life, apart from helping individuals with computer issues. This is very good learning for me, to be in front of a group, to be using my voice, to be sharing. I relish the opportunity to teach in a non-commercial atmosphere at Brockwood Park, not having to be concerned with class sizes, paying for a studio and all that malarky. That may come but for now I’m keeping it simple.

So we come to that point when we know there is this extraordinary sense of self-isolation. We may have a very good job, work furiously, but inwardly there is this tremendous vacuum. We want to fill that and dependence is one of the ways. We use dependence, amusement, church work, religions, drink, women, a dozen things to fill it up, cover it up. If we see that it is absolutely futile to try to cover it up, completely futile – not verbally, not with conviction and therefore agreement and determination – but if we see the total absurdity of it … then we are faced with a fact.

– Krishnamurti, Book of Life, 10 March