The season is changing to autumn, although today was most warm. I am on holiday from Zurich [Insurance] for the first time. I am hoping that last night I took tobacco for the last time. I don’t intend to drink often now. I am disillusioned by most things society gets up to. Maybe I haven’t experienced the right things but I feel it is more than that, and an alternative is needed. So I am staying in lots and reading Krishnamurti. I am working out what the ‘nagging’ is. That is my aim.