Once I begin to explore relaxation I am so surprised to realise how on edge I operate most of the time. I’m tense, nervous, thinking all the time, worried what might happen next, what might leap out at me, inside or outside my body. I think this is pretty normal. What I can say is it is pretty usual. The evidence is all around. Added to our own tensions we stimulate ourselves to get through the day. So many coffee shops! Where did they all come from? Is it because we don’t smoke so much any more we use coffee instead? And once day is done, have some alcohol. What are we avoiding? I don’t know. I don’t think I can know but I feel the urge to move move move, to stay on edge. You never know what might happen.